The crazy world of me..

8:41PM

[*PAST*]

[1*] First grade teacher's name---> Mme. Goffin[What a fat cow she was.. always favored piggum]         [2*] Last word you said---> Carnival... i was reading some random wyclef jean cd outloud.
[3*] Last song you sang--->The Ex by billy talent.
[4*] Last person you hugged---> Katherine Pybus. Wooot!
[5*] Last thing you laughed at---> My Eyebrows.
[6*] Last time you said I dont remember---> I don't god damn well remember. 
[7*] Last time you cried--->Yesterday... well just teared on the phone with my sister.

[*PRESENT*]

[9*] What color socks are you wearing---> Im not wearing any right now.. but my feets are cold.
[10*] What's under your bed--> A monster... no. I can't put anything under my bed.
[11*] What time did you wake up today---> 12 32.:)
[13*] Current hair---> Brown.
[15*] Current annoyance---> My stupid head ache i've had since yesterday:(
[16*] Current longing---> To be the prime minister of canada.. and to have my girly with me.
[17*] Current desktop background--->  Picture of Ville Valo from HIM. What a hottie               [18*] Current worry---> That im gonna fail all my exams.
[19*] Current hate---> That dust makes your nose all sniffled.                                                                [20*] Favorite article of clothing---> hmmm.. i have too many articles to pick from. But i like my new leprechaun bra, It's SO green:D
[22*] Last CD that you listened to---> Gwen Stefani.. i randomly found it in my room! I was like WICKED!
[23*] Favorite place to be---> With my baby... or in bed god my bed is greattttt.
[24*] Least favorite place---> in public bathrooms                                                                                [25*] Time you wake up in the morning---> Weekdays.. 7ish. Weekends.. whenever i can sleep in till.
[26*] If you could play an instrument, what would it be---> A guitar!!! Or a Trombone.
[27*] Favorite color---> hmmmm i like every colour.
[28*] Do you believe in an afterlife---> i think so.. :S
[29*] How tall are you: 5'4.. that's what pig says anyway.
[30*] Current favorite word/saying---> Definitly.. and sweetheart.
[32*] Favorite season---> spring or summer
[33*] One person from your past you wish you could go back to see/help-> Jamie Scott. DAMN!

[*FUTURE*]

[35*] Where do you want to go for university---> um... ?? I don't know yet.
[36*] What is your career going to be like---> Something i like to do:S.
[37*] How many kids do you want---> Maybe one or 2... depends how everything is at the time and yea:)

[*HAVE YOU EVER...*]

[39*] Said "I love you" and meant it---> Yes..of course.
[40*] Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc--->Ew it wasn't my dog but it lives with me and i want to kill it. My cat is wicked cool though.. so i barely ever get angry unless he is being a loser.
[41*] Been to New York---> Nope.. never been                                                                                    [42*] Been to Florida---> NO!!!
[43*] Been to California---> Nope
[44*] Been to Hawaii---> NO
[45*] Been to Mexico---> Never
[46*] Been to China--> :S Nah
[48*] Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day---> Nope... but i have crazy dreams all the time. Thank god they don't come true or my next doors neighbours would be killers!

[*RANDOM*]

[52*] Do you have a crush on someone---> uhh not a crush.. im very in love with someone though.
[53*] What book are you reading now?---> Reliquary
[54*] Worst feeling in the world---> Betrayal
[55*] What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?---> Man i need to take a shower! 
[56*] How many rings before you answer---> Like twice.. if you pick it up too fast it goes to the answering machine. 
[57*] Future daughter's name---> Travis.. i love that name for a girl
[58*] Future son's name---> hmm haven't decided yet.
[59*] Do you sleep with a stuffed animal---> Nah not really anymore.. they always tend to get thrown off my bed
[60*] If you could have any job you wanted---> I have no idea.. something REALLY interesting.
[61*] Do you miss someone and who:---> Yep. My gorgeous girl...</3
[62*] College plans---> No idea yet.
[63*] Piercings---> none

[*THE EXTRA STUFF*]

[64*] Do you do drugs---> not really.. :S I have but not as of lately.
[65*] Do you drink---> Sometimes.
[67*] What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use--> Whatever happens to be in my shower at the time.
[68*] What are you most scared of---> Trolls, Rubber Chickens.. you know the usual.
[69*] What clothes do you sleep in----> Pj bottoms.. and a comfy t-shirt.:D
[70*] Who is the last person that called you---> MELLY!:D
[71*] Where do you want to get married---> In a bar. haha Joke. No Somewhere nice and pretty.
[72*] If you could change anything about yourself what would that be---> My way of thinking.. My attitude.. and self confidence.
[73*] Who do you really hate---> Robert Chant. SCREW YOU ROBERT CHANT!
[74*] Been In Love---> YES
[75*] Are you timely or always late---> Depends on if it's a good day or bad day                                  [76*] Do you have a job---> School then job. Gotta get older first. HA.
[77*] Do you like being around people---> sometimes..though most people are let downs.
[78*] Best feeling in the world---> Knowing that someone loves you and cares about you.. that you'll always have somewhere to fall if you hit rock bottom.
[79*] Are you for world peace---> There's no such thing.. :S There will always be hate in the world.. people just can't get along.
[80*] Are you a health freak---> About certain things.
[81*] Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after---> haha no not really. I just tend to click with certain people. They tend to be gorgeous.. funny and have the hottest personalities ever though.
[82*] Do you have any fetishes?-----> ha.. perhaps.
[83*] Are you lonely right now---> a wee bit.. there's no one around but im enjoying this quiet time.
[84*] Ever afraid you'll never get married---> No i don't really care as long as i find someone who i can share parts of my life with and that make me happy... ill be set just with that.
[85*] Do you want to get married---> perhaps.
[86*] Do you want kids?---> yaaaaa.

[*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*

[87*] Cried---> yep.
[88*] Bought Something---> A sexy bra..;) umm Air freshener.. and POPTARTS:D mmm
[89*] Gotten Sick---> Nope, i feel like an ass bag though.
[90*] Sang--> Yea.. i always sing:P
[91*] Said I Love You---> yep.
[92*] Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them---> As many times as i possibly could ..plus some
[93*] Met Someone---> hmm nope can't say i have.
[94*] Moved On---> Moved on from what?                                                                                                [95*] Talked To Someone---> yes
[96*] Had A Serious Talk---> No not really.. :s
[97*] Missed Someone---> Very Very Much.
[98*] Hugged Someone--> Kat..
[99*] Yelled at Someone---> Almost.. but no.
[100*] Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With---> neggative.

Current mood: mellow

Current music: Run- Rex Goudie

3:14AM

Some people are just so dumb. They need to not complain about how their lives suck and stuff. It's just too much to listen to GAWD:P. Sometimes..i am one of those people but this morning im sitting here and thinking about my life and for an hour atleast i realize its not really [that] bad. Now if i could only remember that 5 mins from now lol. So much shit has happened lately i just try to sorta forget about it. To my knowledge it's working out for me.
People just sorta confuse me i guess. I just never fully understand what they want from me.To help remind myself of all the uneventful things going on..i write in this stupid journal thing. Though i haven't done so in a VERY long time. Lots of stuff has happened but i shall not bore you with my life story. What it all comes down to.. is sad.
-I can't take disaproval loneliness and abandonment. I don't like how people can take the things away from me that i depend on. Even when i know i shouldn't depend on things. It all really depresses me. Some people in my life that i though were my friends are only bringing me down deeper into hole.. so i have to stay with the ones that keep a smile on mah face mutha fuckas. That's pretty much all i have to say of importance.
My brain feels like it's the size of Oklahoma right now.. it's 3 30 in the morning and while most sane people are sleeping. I'm bored as anything fiddling with my hair. Aren't i so chillin? SAY WHAT?! My birthday is coming up, which to me is pretty damn cool. I don't even want anything, just to be older. In a way i find that really sad. I shouldn't WANT to be older. Im so not a good person:S. But no worries, i have du faith. My parents are finally treating me okay.. it's a good feeling. Anyways.. i should go its too early to be up right now. Im outtie. HA as if i just wrote that. Yes Kor.. you are my hero. <3 Kor

Current mood: Over Tired

Current music: Maybe Memories - The Used.

8:01AM

One day i hope you realize all the hell on earth i went thru for you.

12:00PM

Well my life is slowly turning into utter chaos. It makes me very sad when you're so happy for a period of time and then all of a sudden.. you start feeling all the sorrow drift back to you.Its quite depressing. Sarah L. Wrote on my locker" to me you are perfect" I felt so special! She makes me smile. So nice and interesting. :) Aw well im feeling a little gloomy right now. Heard things last night didn't really wanna hear, but i guess its good that i heard them instead of not. Oh well i guess i just got caught up in the moment and thought that i wasn't the only who felt like this. Hmm very hard to talk about without actually saying it. If that makes any sense. I saw the hottest kid a school yesterday.mmm drooooooools. hahah yes kor! EW i drooled on my coloring picture yesterday. AW i got a coloring book and yesterday i spend like the WHOLE night coloring in it. It makes me so happy im gonna color every picture and never talk to anyone again:D Its my new goal in life. Well this entry was clearly the coolest one you've ever read so imma go now. Love you all.

Current mood: KILL ME.

Current music: unholy confessions Avenged Sevenfold

2:53PM

Im so in love. I haven't updated my journal in about a month and all i have to say that has changed is that, i love her more than i ever have. Don't get me wrong i loved her before, but everyday she just seems to be more and more amazing to me. My friends will slowly fade away sadly. But i know that she will always be there with me. Its very comforting actually. Lexie and I went down to visit sarah for a weekend and i had an amazing time, and then sarah came down again this weekend. The thing that makes me sad tho is that i know next weekend i will probably not get to see her:( But imma see what i can do. Anyways i better go before i bore anybody with my sappy excuse of an entry. I've just never felt this way about anyone before and i figured i should let everyone know.
All my love.
Kor.<3

Current mood: In love.

Current music: Into the darkness -Kittie.

7:52PM

Name: Korinna(ewww)
Single or taken: taken. by my lover.
Sex: Female
Birthday: February 1st. So far away:(
Sign: Aquarius
Siblings: 1
Hair colour: Nast brown maybe purple
Eye colour: brown
Height: 5'4ish

RELATIONSHIPS
Are you straight, bisexual, or gay? Im gay. Bring on britney.
Who are your best friends? I don't have any friends lmao.
Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend? Yep<3
How many exes do you have? enough
What is your longest relationship? like 6 months:S
What was your shortest relationship? haha lovely question once i had a 30 minute relationship with dan last week and then we broke up lmao I love him!:D

FASHION
Where is your favourite place to shop for clothes? Uhhh. I like to many things to pick one place.
Any tattoos or piercings? No tattoos Until DECEMBER:) but i don't have any cool piercings:(
Favourite designer?: uhhhh:S i have no idea
What is your most comfortable outfit? OMG my lovely pants that i stole from christina. And my big sweater i inherited from costa! its the SEX!
What do you usually wear? baggy pants and a tight shirt. werd.

SPECIFICS
Do you do drugs? No not really,
What kind of shampoo do you use? right now.. Dove:):)
What are you most scared of? I'm afraid of everything like seriously.
What are you listening to right now? My humps Blak eyed Peas.
Who is the last person that called you? uhh :S i can't even remember. Oh yes.. jenna nixon:S how random.
Where do you want to get married? Maybe somewhere tropical or something or just have a huge party. I don't really care as long as im being wedded to sarah.
How many buddies are online right now? 34
What would you change about yourself? My thumbs, my nastiness lmao.

FAVOURITES
Colours: Black, blue and pink
Foods: hmmm grilled cheese sandwiches... OMG yum
Girls names: Travis.
Boys names: nevaeh
Subjects in school: uhhh drama. Omg funniest class ever. gottah love magic yoda.
Animals: hmm a whale lmao no jk.. a MONKEY.. aw they're so furry and cute, Muah to monkeys.

HAVE YOU EVER
Given anyone a bath? Yes
Smoked? Yes
Bungee jumped? No, but im so going to one day. Its a goal.
Made yourself throw up? Yes, i hafta when i feel shitty. I can't handle waiting.
Skinny dipped? Yes, unfortunetly.. unlucky people having to see me naked.
Ever been in love? Yes still very much am.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? Yes who hasn't
Cried when someone died? Yes, no shit they're dead.
Lied? Omg yes.. its terrible but when you have screwed parents like mine its a must.
Fallen for your best friend? Nope can't say i have:S
Been rejected? Yes
Rejected someone? Yes, sorry:S
Used someone? hahaha for what? Not that i can remember:S
Done something you regret? Yes all the time.

CURRENT
Clothes: tank top, crazy ring. pj pants and a hoody
Music: nothing,:S my parents took away my speakers
Annoyance: Everything around me
Smell: apple pie:D mmmmmmm
Desktop picture: Britney effing spears *drools*
Cd in player: Taking back sunday, fall out boys oh and daniel leant me alexisonfire:) loves daniel
DVD in player: Im too ghetto for that.

LAST PERSON
You touched: haha that couls so be taken sexually. Uh jennie
Hugged: Jennie
You IMed: Sarah
You yelled at: My sister
You kissed: uhhh daniel but not romanticly.

ARE YOU
Understanding? Most of the time..i think:S
Open-minded? As far as i know.
Arrogant? When im bitchy
Insecure? Very.. its not my fault.
Random? Most of the time.
Hungry? No i just ate pie that i made:) Im so cool.
Smart? Im bloody brilliant. No thats a lie.. im stupid but im going to be smart.. y'all watch.
Moody? Very, i don't know way tho.
Hard working? As of right now yes, before no. But imma be rich.
Organized? Sorta...:S
Healthy? Well im clean lmao.. im hygenic. But other than that i should probably see a doctor.
Shy? Yes, when i just meet people but i tend to open up easily
Difficult? When im being stubborn
Attractive? I definitely do not think so.
Bored easily? God yes i've been grounded for a week im going crazy.
Obsessed? With my lover.. yes very much.
Angry? Sorta.. you see i hate my life.
Sad? Yes...:(
Happy? yes.:)
Hyper? Not right now.. i hafta pee but can't:(
Trusting? Am i trusting? I'd like to think so.

WHO DO YOU WANNA
Kill? George bush lmao!
Slap? Wesley.. he didn't show me his modeling pics. FAGGOT
Get really wasted with? uhhh.. i have no idea:S
Get high with? No one really.:S
Talk to offline? haha no one im becoming a hermit people suck. ACTUALLY ahmed. Or daniel. Or robin .B. If i could tho it would be sarah.. i miss her lots
Talk to online? Sarah, i could talk to her for hours.
Sex it up with? uhhhh.. my lover.:$ or britney spears lol

RANDOM
In the morning: Shower time:D:D<3
All you need is: me!!! im so fun.
Love is: amazing if you experience it with the right person. WERD
I dream about: Beauty pagents and coacoa puffs.
Sexual preference: where are the girls at?
What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Nothing i don't find anyone attractive.. and if i do im like damnnnnnn or im looking at sar and then im just all smiles:)

NUMBER
Of times I have had my heart broken: Three times.
Of hearts I have broken: Not too many.
Of guys I've kissed: enough.. haha boys
Of girls I've kissed: enough.. :P
Of CDs I own: I don't know really but i listened to every single cd i own today i was so bored.
Of scars on my body: not that many.
Of things that I regret: enough.. ill probably forget about them one day.

Current mood: restless

Current music: Someday i will understand- BRITNEY!!:D

7:37PM

Well hmm how do i sum up my life right now? Im tired of waiting for so much. I need things to happen now.

At School.. well theres lotsa drama there.. everyones got beef. Nikki came back today :) she was flirting with me so people say:s i don't see it. But hey i felt special and she even wrote me a letter, it was cute but i tthink shes mad at me for not wanting to go to a party with her. Im just so not in a good enough mood to go to that. But daniel and robin are the shit and they wait for me at my locker all the time :) Its awesommmmmme. I love my friends.

In gym we played soccer and my knee popped out of the socket thing so i needed help from someone to help me pop it back in. It was way nast but oh well it feels better now.

Jennie is totally moving in soon i think. Say WERD.. werd! Its gonna be so awesome i hope. Shes bringing her pug mac aww i love him he's the SHIT and she's gonna save me from my own insanity. Wo0t!

I don't even know what to think anymore to be honest, everything has just gotten WAY to confusing for me. What id do just to see the future, i wouldn't have to worry about anything cause i know where id be. WERDDD sleepover party at jennies tonight. :D:D You can always count on jennie!:) but anyways i should go get ready muah!

5:05PM

Haven't updated in a while so here i go..
Things are okay in my life i suppose shit goes down but everything usually works out
I've done all my school work too.. and got the highest mark in drama..and got a bunch of candy for being able to think of the most words starting with the letter P wo0t im talented:P I had a shitty day today but everything seemed to go well. I ran my cooper test OMG it was sooo long i felt like dying but i was with pig and managed to do okay. Then i found a half pack of cigarrettes so i gave them out like candy.. i took one oopS:s and gave the rest away. Kate got most of em. I hafta pee so bad right now omfg. Then stacey pig and laley ditched lunch and went to get high with a bunch of randoms i was sorta disgusted.. it was WAY too wierd. Dis orientation was today i didn't go but every1 looked like they were having fun. I drank like 4 cokes today in science and almost puked i swear i will not drink pop for like as month. Well im in a pretty good mood hope things stay that way love you all. <3

Current mood: content

Current music: ewww photograph

12:56PM

Well today had been pretty shitty starting out, which blows because it was supposed to be a good day. Oh well shit happens i guess. I've had some super amazing conversations in the past 6 hours and i've concluded so many things, but a lot of the questions in my head still aren't answered. Im gonna try and move away from all the things and people that bring me down, and start being on top of the world. I'm no longer gonna let people hurt me. Fuck it. I'm going to find a bunch of new people to see, its gonna be great. Schools pretty okay except for gym! I hate it, i can do it and everything cause i LOVE sports but i hate doing laps its such a bore. On top of it i got hit in the face with a racket and my nose started bleeding during lunch.. just my luck. Well anyways i hafta to go do random things Bye <3

Current mood: aggravated

9:11PM

OMFG im so sad right now its like 9 oclock but im so bored and need to hear something encouraging schools tomorrow im stolked as hellllll tho!.

I talked to chrisssssss, she had a good trip she sent me some pictures, felt shitty for a minute and then didn't give a shit anymore. Im tired of caring.

Sarah .L. you better better better!!! be having an awesome time at greenday AND jimmy eat world. Jealous. Bah i get to see you tomorrow girly!

BAH kates in my gym class right the fuck on fools we played soccer tonight and i was so effen happy i got to play before summer was over

Sarah baby i miss you, hope you're happy:) loves you

Dildos are 123.00 FOR AWESOME ones at the adult fun super store everyone go! I gotta piss beyond belief and im seriously so bored.

SOMEONE COME FIND ME PLEASE:(

Current mood: anxious

Current music: E.I. Nelly:P lol

2:43PM

Okay so busy past couple of days ive just been up and going. I haven't been doing anything productive but hey who cares. So me and sarah.. ya. I told sarah to be with tasha because she can't be with me right now and i don't want her not being happy while im not there. I hate it tho, cause i coulda stayed with my lover but i can't be with someone while they're with someone else. Oh well that just blows for me.

2 days before school, that REALLY sucks but is really awesome all at once. I cannot wait to see Stanko and Rachums. BAH thats all. This semestre is seriously going to kick some ass. Im going to do really good i can feel it:) AW go me and my burst of self confidance.

My tummy hurts like hell:( ugh i wanna go get it checked but i don't cause doctors freak me out. Bah i just want it to stop hurting:( AH i inherited a new shirt and i LLLLLLLLLLLOVES it. Its yellow.. random i know but its the serious sex.

Moths forever.

Current mood: worried

Current music: killswitch Engage -Rose of sharyn what what!

12:44AM

Im definitely in one hell of a mood. Its awesome. My life is still pretty shitty but im looking forward to the future. My moth loves me. :) and i am going to live on the island of How to make moths orgasm

Im now dating sarah again, she lives far away but i have no doubts that this will work. She makes me feel like no one else and with her i feel like i can accomplish anything. She makes everything okay and is the only one i want.

I wish i could meet criss angel just once tho, i think id jump him!.. actually i don't think id jump him i KNOW i would. He's so gorgeous and is without a doubt my hero.

Im such a loser i have no hair elastic so i tied a shirt in my hair to keep it from bothering me:S cause im just THAT cool. you hate to admit it:P

Im in the best mood right now, i feel loved more then i ever have. I have my baby, my moth girl, my stank man, Stax, Piggum, Rachums, Bennett and somewhat walshy. The pot is getting a bit much with her but shes still always there for me and that means more to me than anything.


Only a few more days till school and im so effen excited. I have someone I love in every class so that puts me at ease. Specially stanko he's the most amazing boy i have ever met, he promised that no matter what he'll help me and be my helper:) bah can't wait for life to start.. its like a new beginning for me.. im all smiles and just can't wait 17 days till i get my pants and my boo.

Current mood: beyond words.

Current music: none, im too happy to focuse my attention on music.

5:46PM

Wow, i was having the most amazing past few days until yesterday night. My head is spinning and all i can think is why. I feel so neggative but right now theres nothing im happy about, my life sucks and on top of it i have to wait 6 months before i can do anything to change it. Oh well ill live like this for now i guess. Bah i hate when the last words you hear from people are lies. Im sick of people lying it doesn't get you any further in life, im learning my lesson everyone else should learn theres. Im trying to improve myself and i know that one day ill grow up and make something of my life. Anyways i don't really have much to say and im sick of being sad so im gonna do my best to bring out the positive of everything. Wish me luck. Much love<3

Current mood: numb

Current music: Clumsy- OLP

9:07PM

Okay so the ex was pretty effen awesome I went with Sarah Meg Lexi Billy Kate and Jennie, the best was fucking going on the typhoon or whatever its called with meg i laughed so hard. OMFG i went on the zipper twice, what a piece. Oh well the first time rocked the most EVER. The thing just kept on flipping. Then after the ex me and kate had to wait for a bus to go to lexi's and had a pretty intimate talk i was so sad. So we were walking around the bus station and saw some man with fucking FUNGUS on his head trying to be covered up by a bandaid. So we get on the bus and some scary old man has a plant like growing outta his pocket..me and kate started laughing so hard omfg! We ot to lexi's after getting lost around 9 times.(it was dark and we're idiots.) We all did some e.. ya cool but not cool. Oh well. It was awesome till i started being a bitch. Aw fuck i suck.

The next day me and kate woke up so out of it.I lost my phone cause i was to tired and needing to leave that i didn't really give a fuck. We walked to srb from lexi's which was the most POINTLESS thing ever, cause we got there and realized we needed money to get the schedual. We were pissed that lady had no idea what we were saying cause i think we were mumbling lmao. We started walking out of srb and i didn't wanna go home looking or feeling like that so
we walked all the way to kates house dying of heat We get there and the doors fucking locked with no way to get in so we walk to pisani's stay there for like half an hour call brendan. He came and picked us up and drove us to get kates key. We get there watch movies and then stan calls and we walked like 400000 kilometers.. not really but at least 40. I spent that night at kates house which seriously rocked.

Current mood: blank

Current music: no transitory- alexisonfire

2:08AM

Im seriously so bored right now..eww my sister is talking to me about her sex life.. what a bad thing to do.. yuck. Anyways, there is nothing to do. I saw sarah today she makes me smile:P Aw! Ex tomorrow omg so excited ZIPPER holy fuckers im going to die waiting. Bah i don't care if i have to go to the ex alone ill go and have the BEST mother fucking time, i hope candace sees me so she can like jump me aw she rocks, i still don't know what imma wear though:S fuck! Sarah so jacked my pants today, im so sad what a hater:P IF YOU READ THIS YOU ARE A -HATER-:P:P anyways im getting my money soon.I get to see my piggles in less than 2 weeks omg im so excited, i haven't seen her in 2 months, aw pig</3. School starts soon oh god:S But im actually so determined to do good. Don't bring me down. I wish i had some kind of entertainment right now. okay its bed time i guess, fuck i am so not gonna be able to fall asleep my life is horrible Bye all

Current mood: content

Current music: Drops of Jupiter. -Train

2:22AM

What up all? Man today has been Shitty very truely bad:( I got ditched and replaced by damian (like who the fuck is that really) and had to do nothing all day. :( I cried so much cause i was just so mad at everyone. Im really starting to feel bad for all the mean things i do tho, cause i realized that if i make others as sad as they make me im a pretty terrible person. News flash so i tried being nice to mom and dad.. and just did everything they said. Though they were drnking since like 1 ish that afternoon so i dunno:S But ya i think all this nicenest stuff is coming from the book im reading Its called, "Literature Structure, Sound and Sense" It makes things seem more real and pleasurable. But anyways,i am so bored and not happy that i should go to sleep now. Wow.. EX IS COMING im pissed i got ditched but whatever im gonna have a blast with my date:P

Current mood: disappointed

Current music: Foresaken-Korn

12:54AM - Holy shit WWE.

I hate my life sometimes. Bah

Kate whos supposed to be my bestfriend lied to me i think, Kelly lied to me probably. Jennie didn't but i didn't talk to her.. they all had a big partay thing that i wasn't invited to it was pretty da,n sad, i was such a loner. Damnnnn. Oh well im over it. I suppose

Aw i got to see sar! That girl is wonderful! I hadn't seen her for 2 months and we managed to talk for a long time.. you know you're cool when. Gah my voice:s thats still freaking me out.. it makes me wanna talk more haha. I saw her off today, she looks like such a girl its crazy!! She came and left.. so sad.

HOLY MOTHER FUCKER pardon my language in the following paragraph but, WWE was so welfare omg :| haha. MAn im pissed John Cena was not even there? like what is that.. only in canada. But trish and stacey were there OMFG.. stacey more so but, they are even hotter in person. Im not an ass person but once you see this girls ass you're hooked.. i swear im not gay. haha. Big show was there, we all went crazy this guy is a monster, ive never ever in my whole life seen someone so huge.:| I'd be scared shitless to be in that ring.. they must really get hurt.. a lot of its fake but the lifts and everything, fuck they must really feel that in the morning. My voice is fucked.

My cuz is here, he rocks and is so cute.. he thinks im a cracka[Thats right cracka] cause im so retarded sometimes, everyone should have seen me today i was so freaking out and saying the stupids things..i love myself so much sometimes.

I met a boy and a girl today.. she has to be gay theres no possible way that shes straight. The boys name is ricky he is so cute and innocent and random as hell, i love it we're talking about the movie.. "a night at the roxbury." what a kid. The girls name is Chris, well chrissy but she goes by chris, OMG LIKE criss angel oh yea! But yes this girl is SMART she already made her own landscaping business and shes only 18, its nuts and shes so hot. OMG she lives downtown i should get her to come to gay pride omg

Eww im wearing an old granny sweater but it looks pimped out granny style, for shizzle. I think i should go gangster ggg unit!!

EX is coming<33! How many days left on the countdown like.. 10 holy god im excited. I don't know what im going to wear but i better look alright i mean geeze its the ex!!! The zipper omg i can't wait im just gonna keep going on it over and over again. Not really but shhh. There is no way im going on the ferris wheel tho cause they are just a no go. Im going to pee myself im so excited, sorry im just super thrilled. Meg really got me into humping things.. this could be bad.

But anyways, i should peace. Ill write later perhaps. You all have a good night now, don't have to much fun without me:D bye fuckers!

Wow i really need to stop saying the word I. Fuuuuuuck!

Current mood: thirsty

Current music: Truely Madly Deeply. Savage Garden

6:04PM

ugh, today is such a slow day. I need something exciting to happen!
Tho August is going to be the best fucking month ever im serious. Heres my down low.
4 days. Sarah my favorite person in the world that i have not seen in 2 months is gonna be in o-town so im definetly seeing her.:D:D
5 days. WWE RAW im gonna be there so roudy and with a big sign saying hey fuckers! man im so excited. I've never been to anything like that so bare with me. Then sleepover at jennies and get so trashed.. we've had this planned for like a month:S
15 days. The EX!! wo0t all the rides and everything!:D my heart is like pounding out of my chest. Then im having a sleepover! wo0t! With some of the most amazing people ever
18 days. Im going to the EX again.. holy shit i have no idea where im getting all this money but im sticking to this plan no matter what anyone says so don't bring me down:P
19 days. Gay fucking Pride, hopefully it will be as fun as last year! Im keeping my fingers crossed! If its not, well ill fucking make it fun so be around me and keep me occupied plz!

I think there is something else happening but i forget what it is:S
Im so excited to start school, stanko got to love that kid he makes my day. Wow i look like such a little slut, i should invest on some conservative clothing cause this is just getting ridiculous lmao.

Stacey is talking to me randomly, i thought we were in a fight.. but i guess its just between me and katelin, which isn't 2 new. I actually hate her now. She is so different like really, shes cocky snobby rude slutty boy oriented and ignorant. Ever just want someone to be the way they were when you met them.. well thats her for me. The truth hurts so don't be hating on me for saying that:(

Okay well no need to end on a bad note so, I love everyone in the whole world and cannot wait for this weekend, im nerves are so fucked from being excited. Bye!!! You all better love me fuckers.

Current mood: crappy

Current music: New american classic Taking Back Sunday

2:57PM

Well I haven't really been home a lot this week,

Day 1 I slept over at sarahs house which was super fun. Lynn Heather and Robin were there, kate came for a bit but ended up going home. I was so tired the next day I didn't get any sleep.I got my painting from sarah tho! She's an awesome artist shes my hero.I loved the painting so much i was smiling the whole night it was awesome.
Day 2 Jennie and Kate slept over we pretty much spent the whole day together, we made a pentagram on the floor with candles and stuff, it sounds dumb but it was so fun. Then we got picked up by Numy, and he took us driving and did donuts we were all like screaming I swear we coulda died.
Day 3 Stacey came home, and i gave her back her key and stuff for the animals, but it ended in us fighting because of Katelin. It really sucks tho cause i really wanna stay bestfriends with these girls but they are so different. So boy oriented and girly and have to look pretty. Definetly not like me, it actually makes me feel quite self concious.
Day 4 I went to the beach to try and tan my body for gay pride, it didn't work out that well cause it wasn't that sunny outside when we got there so i was so pissed. Im thinking i should try and get some sun today, but i actually feel like pure hell. My stomach hurts and mu head is spinning.
Day 5 (yesterday) Me kelly kate Josh and jennie had a sleep over at jennies. I think it was the best sleepover ever. Kelly and jennie ditched us for a while but me and kate had a really long talk about everything we've been through together and how no matter what we're staying friends for life, we appologized for anything we've ever done to hurt each other and yea we ended up staying together the whole night Id die for that girl shes my bestfriend. Josh was with us and i was asking him about what happened to him and stuff it was pretty upfront but i don't think i made him uncomfortable. Jennie and me started talking and to me jennie is a girl that really understands how i feel, she makes me so happy bah and we've been through some of the same things so its so easy for me to be myself around her. You all should meet her shes a pretty awesome person. Sorry if im just rambling on about these people, but last night really made me realize that i have to cherish the people that care about me in my life cause if they go away im nothing. OH and then haha sorry but it was the best part of last night. Jennies roomate Dorian had a big fight with her boyfriend and he started yelling at her and everything, it was so sad cause i found out earlier that she was pregnant with his baby and she was crying and stuff. So i went up to her room and i talked with her, and told her that even tho im still young i will be there for her and yea she cried it was pretty touching so now im throwing her an effen baby shower. Go me. Alright well that was my interesting week. I prolly bored you by having you read all this. oops sorry.:S

Current mood: drained

Current music: Set Phasers To The Sun- Taking back Sunday

1:28AM

haha im a loser thats all i have to say.

Heres the downlow.
-I so have to move out i seriously do not care if you guys do not have faith in me, but i have faith in myself.. Im gonna be smart and do good and ugh its going to be fantabulous!
-GAY PRIDE/ EX
Okay i have like never been so excited in my whole life for anything so bad, Gaypride is going to be nuts, i convienced daniel and sarah to come with me.. go me! Daniel is letting me dress him in drag! Loves him! Sarah is going to go all amazingly hot like me. Everyone Gets flowers. Me and her are going to be giving away big pretty fake long stem roses, with a quote on them saying like "It would suck to die in the closet" haha im so excited. If you get one, you're special. Im thinking i should go to the Ex twice! But im not sure yet. MUST DECIDE. BAH!
- I totally told someone that i was going to be infatuated with them until the day I die. Im such a loser and should be shot. Oh well hopefully someone out in the world cares haha. I love you all so much.

Current mood: contemplative

Current music: Say it - Kumbia Kings